"Gone From My Sight"

I read this in the back of a book that Hospice gave my mom. It is very poignant and I wanted to share it.

Gone from My Sight

I am standing upon the seashore. A ship at my sidespreads her white sails to the morning breeze andstarts for the blue ocean. She is an object of beautyand strength. I stand and watch her until at lengthshe hangs like a speck of white cloud just wherethe sea and sky come to mingle with each other.

Then someone at my side says: "There, she is gone!"

"Gone where?"

Gone from my sight. That is all. She is just as large inmast and hull and spar as she was when she left my side andshe is just as able to bear her load of living freight to herdestined port.

Her diminished size is in me, not in her. And just at themoment when someone at my side says: "There, she is gone!"there are other eyes watching her coming, and other voicesready to take up the glad shout: "Here she comes!"

And that is dying.

By: Henry Van Dyke

Weight Loss + Depression = Weight Gain

Most everyone knows about my dad. And yes, the thought of him dying is unfortunately at the forefront of my thoughts. And so...all the weight I've taken off over the past eight months has found its way back to me. I know why, it's because of my eating habits. The holidays killed me. And it was because I let them. I decided to take a break from weight watchers over the holidays and therein lies the problem. I learned my lesson. No matter how bad you did or think you will do, NEVER TAKE A BREAK!!! It is harder than hard to get back on track after a two week break from eating correctly. When I first started WW, I cut out all of my soda and was used to it. But then I thought...'maybe I can drink just one Pepsi a day and be okay'. And so...a habit started. And then it went up to maybe two Pepsis a day. UGH I can't lose for gaining. And it is all my fault. And the fact that I keep beating myself up about it doesn't help me at all. I'm tired of half-assing my way through this journey. I rarely eat fruit...I hardly eat a veggie. I've found ways to get around the points system without actually learning anything in the process. In eight months!!! So...I'm starting over. And doing it right...by the book.